Throwing it all Away

1986/2004/2005 story by Mark Newbold

Three years after Episode IV - A New Hope

 

 

   “Gotta admit, you scrub up pretty good for a low down, no good smuggler.”

Jan Lomona adjusted his collar and ran his fingers through his brown shoulder length hair as he glanced at his fiancé Frans Latka in the reflection of the full length mirror that took up half the wall of his quarters aboard his freighter the Berone Sunrise.  His usual colourful attire had been set aside and in its place a three-quarter length black suit and matching shirt reflected back at Jan, his uncle Ade’s silver cufflinks glistening in the rooms bright lights.  He gave Frans a confident smile as he admired the new form hugging red dress that accentuated every one of her curves.  Shame we’re going out tonight.  That dress looks like my kinda challenge.

   “Well, us smugglers gotta have something up our sleeves.  You should see how good Gimo looks in one of these.”

Frans thought of the squat, leathery body of Gimo the Gamp in a tuxedo and raised an eyebrow.

   “I’ll save that thought for later.  But first Captain, we have a meal to enjoy.  And you have something to tell me.”

   “I sure do.”  He brushed himself down and turned to face his long time girlfriend, looking down at his suit.  “Will I do?”

Frans kissed him softly on the lips and winked.

   “Yeah, you’ll do.  Come on, let’s get going.”

Jan managed to pull himself away from Frans and into the corridor of the Sunrise, motioning for Aurran to join him as he made his way towards the guest quarters.  Inside he could hear frantic mutterings and curses in ancient A-desandian and couldn’t resist a grin.  That’s my girl.

   “Do you mind helping Paige get ready, we’re gonna be late and you know Glann doesn’t like to be kept waiting.”

Aurran nodded and rapped on the door, his metal hands clanging away like spanners.

   “I’m well aware of Mister Cipples impatient nature Master Jan.”  Answered Aurran as the door opened and Paige appeared still in her jeans and t-shirt, hair spun in curling strips, make up only half applied.  Jan groaned as Aurran moved into her quarters to help.

   “C’mon Paige, we’ve got twenty minutes to get to the Fortress.  You’ve been in there for two hours.”

   “I had a coolant leak to clean up, the primary quadex needed a recharge and the nava computer had to be rebooted after you managed to fry the old one last week.” 

   “You’ve had all day to do that!”

Paige growled under her breath, turning back to Aurran as he held her evening dress up to the light, checking it had been ironed correctly. 

   “Alright Dad, you find me another fourteen year old who’ll do that for free!”

Jan blinked and frowned at his daughter as he leaned forward.

   “Free?  Who do you think bought that dress, the Force Fairy?”

   “Master Jan,” interjected Aurran, sensing another Lomona spat.  “If you give us five minutes Mistress Paige will be quite ready.”

Jan took a deep breath and grinned.  I should know by now I can trust my old pal to sort these things out.  Jan nodded and moved out of the doorway, allowing it to close.  He frowned again and checked his chrono – eighteen minutes to twenty hundred.  Stang, it won’t look good if I’m late for this meal.  Especially after I tell Glann my news.

Frans closed the door to their quarters and checked everything she needed was in her small handbag.  Jan couldn’t resist staring at her as she organised herself, her red hair and heels playing off the glittering dress, her green eyes and nails only highlighting her beauty.  He was the luckiest man in the galaxy, and he knew it.  So why does my self-destruct button vibrate every time I see another beautiful woman?  Frans is my girl but I treat her so bad, even though she doesn’t know it.  He shrugged and closed his eyes.  I must be crazy.

   “Ready?” Frans asked, knowing full well that Paige was still in the throes of a fashion disaster.  Jan cocked his head towards the door.

   “Almost.  I’m beginning to think Aurrans primary function is fashion advisor.”

   “How does that explain your normal fashion sense then?” jibed Frans.  Jan gave her a sarcastic look and tapped his foot on the deck plates as he waited.  A minute later the door opened and Paige appeared looking twenty-four instead of fourteen and as if she had been made up by a professional artist.  Jan nodded in approval as she stepped past him towards Frans and patted Aurran on the shoulder.

   “Thanks old buddy, knew I could rely on you.”  He paused as he watched his daughter and Frans step carefully down the ramp to the waiting taxi speeder outside and leaned towards his droid.  “By the way, who taught you the make up skills?”

Aurran tapped the side of what looked like his nose and appeared for all the world as if he was smiling at Jan.

   “That would be telling.  Enjoy your night Master Jan.”

Jan laughed and followed his girls down the ramp.

   “You too.”

 

 

Glann Cipple watched Jan as he entered his office on the highest ninth level of his Amagad Fortress, the last member of Glanns guests to arrive.  Frans and Paige were already seated, having carried on ahead as Jan had hurriedly rushed into Zythlies to grab a bottle of Geenau whiskey as a gift for his employer.  Lomona closed the double doors behind him, the warmth of the log fire warming his left side as he walked past it towards Cipple.  He offered the whiskey with a smile.

   “Thought this might keep the evening rolling along.”

Glann checked the bottles vintage and nodded, clearly impressed.

   “The table wine will do that.  This treasure is staying in my desk drawer.”  He appraised the bottle again.  “Thank you Jan.”  The two men shook hands and both made their way to the table.  Jan seated himself between Frans and Paige, glancing at both with a wink and waited for Glann as he cleared his throat.

   “I thought that tonight I would break from our usual routine and invite a handful of you for a more informal gathering.”  Jan looked around the table, some of faces he knew and a few he didn’t.  All told there were fifteen people seated at the table all enjoying their first glass of wine and the warmth of the log fire.  Jan grinned at Goah Galletti who nodded back across the table at him.  Jan figured that Goah was probably here under duress, evening dinner engagements not being the Trefnarian assassin’s particular forte. Goah gave Paige a small smile and Jan noticed his daughter blush in the yellow light and squeezed her hand gently.   Glann continued.  “Our operations continue to go well.  Many of our competitors’ operatives were eliminated on Soluman and our brief brush with our new Imperial governor was soon corrected.”  A laugh rippled around the table as everyone recalled the reposting of General Kriner, the corrupt Imperial overlord of Amagad Glann had in his pocket who, after pressure from Cipple was reinstated to his position.  “The D’Staan operation is well on its way to being integrated into our organisation.  Even Dressel is quiet, which is a blessing in itself.”  Another laugh ran around the table.  “All told, I am satisfied with our current status.”  He checked his desk screen and gave Goah a brief glance.  “The Remlan V situation.  Sort it.”

Goah nodded curtly and drank a drop of his water as Glann turned to Melm who stood to his feet as four waiters moved around the table, and Jan had to look closely in the light of the fire to confirm that they were synthetics.  Classic Glann – knows everyone in the room so he knows where his potential security leaks are.  Unlike good old Melm.  The white haired leader of Glanns elite Shadow Warriors assassin squad began to speak.

   “Intelligence continues to be consistent and steady.  Our agents across the galaxy are set in deep cover and reporting back information to us.  We have an agent in the Core who is being reassigned to the Anoat System.”  He flicked a quick glance at Galletti which Glann noticed but the black clad assassin did not and continued.  “Rumours of increased Imperial activity in the sector have been confirmed.  Alliance forces engaged Imperial forces on Entall two months ago, and Setnin has seen an increased Imperial presence on hyperspace lanes and in the streets of major worlds.  Our operations continue to grow and our intelligence division has hired thirty new agents this month, many taken from opposing organisations.”  Melm seated himself as Jan took a drink from his Duarga and smiled at Frans.  It certainly appeared that everything was in order, and Jan relaxed into his seat as the starters were served.

The evening went well, easy conversations about business, trade and other less taxing issues.  Jan and Frans had a long chat with Cipple’s wife Bella about vacations, something Glann never took but Bella was determined to.  Paige entered into a long discussion with another young girl present about, what else, fashion and music.  Even Galletti made the effort, discussing traps and snares with one of Cipple’s nameless Shadow Warriors.  All told it was a comfortable, successful evening.

The four courses were finished and the remaining guests had sunk into their seats by the fire, enjoying the last of their drinks.  Goah and Melm had left, both with other duties to attend to and the females of the group had adjourned to the opposite side of the Fortress and the veranda that gave a wide view of Mount Fava and the estates below.  Glann and Jan were stood by the window watching Amagad in the dead of night, as busy as it was at noon, skies filled with fireflies of engines and speeders.  Jan took a sip from his Duarga and looked across at Glann.

   “I’ve got something I need to talk to you about.”

Glann continued to stare ahead, sipping at his own whiskey and watching Galletti blast off in the Phoenix.  Jan waited patiently for a reply.

   “I assume it’s not company business, or else you would have brought it up at dinner.”

   “No, it’s not.  Well, not exactly.”  Jan paused as he took another mouthful of his drink.  He cleared his throat and pressed on.  “I’ve been handed an opportunity, and I think I want to take it.”  He paused again.  “You know my father was killed on Entall two months ago?”

Glann nodded solemnly.

   “I do.  My condolences.”

Jan nodded his thanks but continued swiftly.

   “His death set this into motion.”  Jan turned away from the window towards the roaring fire.  Lomona and Cipple were now alone in the room, all others having departed quietly, which pleased Jan.  He hated sharing details of his personal life with strangers, but often seemed to nonetheless.  “My family back on A-desando is next in line to accept the governorship of Ecaps City.  Dad was due to take the posting, with the Empires permission.  It would have solidified the Imperial presence there, given them an even stronger hold of the Bordon Space Lane.  But now he’s dead.”  Jan took another swig of Duarga.  “My mother was offered the position, but she only has weeks to live, maybe less.  It would have been handed down to their eldest son, but my brothers Luude and Hijjin are dead.”  Jan turned to face Glann.  Which leaves me.

Cipple nodded and looked into his glass of whiskey, rolling the drink around the cut crystal glass, deep in thought.  He stood in silence, assessing his thoughts.  Finally he looked up and spoke.

   “And you’re here to ask my permission?”  Glann eyed Jan closely in the firelight and slowly smiled.  “No, you’re not are you.”  He stated.  Jan glanced away.

   “Not in so many words, no.”  Lomona smiled.  “Why, do I need your permission?”

Glann cast a long look over the vista of Amagad City that always lay beyond his blast-proof window, as much his as the glass in his hand, or the air in his lungs.  Or the men on his payroll…

   “No Jan, you don’t.  You’ve explained yourself and I appreciate that.  And if I were in your shoes I would do exactly the same.”

Jan paused, his glass hovering just off his lips.

   “You would?”

Glann nodded.

   “Of course.  We are both men of opportunity.  Neither of us pass up chances that come our way.  Smart men never do.”  He motioned towards Jan with the glass.  “And besides, if you turned this down you would regret it for the rest of your life.”  He watched Jan again and the smuggler could feel the gears turn in the ganglords head.  “You hadn’t made up your mind about this, had you?”

   “Not entirely.  I guess I wanted to run it by you, see if it really was something I should pursue.  Obviously you think it is.”

Glann smiled to himself.  Clever manoeuvring Lomona.  If I had thought your process through I may have been able to keep you here.  But then again, perhaps not.

   “Accept your governorship, I can highly recommend it.”  He turned a slow circle around his spartan but elegant office.  “But remember, the trappings of success are just that: traps.  A mans goals are measured by more than possessions and trinkets.  Achievements and security, a good night’s sleep and a comforting word.  They can be worth more than all the possessions in the galaxy.  We all strive to achieve, to possess as much as we can, but it always comes down to the essentials.”  Cipple finished his glass of whiskey.  “Believe me, I know.”

   “Thanks, I appreciate that.”  Jan emptied his own glass and placed it down on Cipple’s wide crème-coloured desk.  “I guess I’d better get back and pack.  Tell the guys to work A-desando any time they like, as long as they’re discreet.”  He grinned as he offered his hand to his now former employer.  “You know the score.”

   “I know the score Jan.”  He shook the A-desandians hand firmly and fixed him with a genuine smile.  “Good luck Governor Lomona.”

 

 

   “Pinch me, I think I must be dreaming.”

   “Did you slip something into his drink?”

   “If only I was that devious.”

Frans elbowed Jan in the ribs as he slid an arm around her bare shoulders and she snuggled up to him in their bed.

   “You’re the poster boy for devious.”

   “Really?  And here’s me thinking there were mirrors hanging up everywhere.”

Frans looked up at Jan as he fixed his other arm behind his head and rested on it.

   “So, when do we leave?”

Jan grinned and closed his eyes in thought.

   “First thing in the morning.  I called ahead, they’re expecting us late tomorrow evening.  And I want to let the boys know we’re going, run through some things with the guys, give them a few hints and tips.”

Frans smiled as she coiled herself around Jan.

   “Oooh, your feet are cold!”  She tucked her feet around a swathe of warm blanket.  “Why, don’t you think they’ll know what to do?”

   “Sure, but sadly panache can’t be taught so I’ll have to go through every detail, or else when I get back…well, there’ll be nothing to come back to.”

Frans frowned and glanced up at her fiancé.

   “What makes you think you’re coming back?”

Jan glanced away, suddenly struck by that thought.  It hadn’t occurred to him that this may well be the end of his smuggling career, his life as a free trader.  If events went well back home there was every chance that he would either continue his stint as Governor, or be offered a new position later down the line.  The thought of being away from the space lanes permanently simply hadn’t computed.

   “It never hurts to be thorough.  Besides, Glanns guys will be running through Ecaps, I told him that earlier.  I’ll still be involved.”

Frans shook her head and thumped him on the arm.

   “Jan, just for once couldn’t you concentrate on one thing at a time instead of ten?  You’ve agreed to become Governor of Ecaps City.  That’s a huge thing for an A-desandian.  Make that work, be the best governor ever.”  She snuggled up to him again.  “Worry about Glann some other time.”

   “I’m not worried about Glann, it’s just…”  His voice trailed off as he drifted in thought again.  Frans waited for him to gather himself.  “It’s just that I’m not sure I’m ready to walk away from all this quite yet.  I’m thirty-two, not even close to my prime, and look at what I’ve achieved already.”

Frans nodded, fixing him with a level stare.

   “Yeah lover, look at what you’ve achieved. You’ve managed sixteen years as a smuggler and you’re still in one piece, still got your ship, some money in the Bank of Zelon.”  She kissed him softly on the lips.  “God knows how but you’ve still got me.  Be grateful.  Take this time out and run with it, and if it doesn’t work out then think things through again.”  She leaned back onto her own pillow and ruffled his hair.  “I fully intend to throw myself into it one hundred percent.  I won’t miss the lanes a bit.”

Jan gave her a warm smile but inside ran all the scenarios through his mind.  He’d left the lanes before for Frans, promised to marry her and find another life but had managed to last only a few weeks before returning to the spaceways.  What if this was the same?  What if he hated the drudgery of responsibility and the burden of command?  He let out a slow sigh and submitted to the restlessness of sleep.

 

 

The Berone Sunrise swung low over the low rooftops of Ecaps City’s outskirts and already Jan could see the vast procession that was snaking its way down Addrone Way, the long and wide thoroughfare that led directly to Governors House, his new home.  The closer they got to the city the taller the buildings rose until the sky was filled with skyscrapers, the only buildings on A-desando allowed by law to be built more than three stories high.  Frans and Paige peered out of the small circular windows in the main hold to see ticker tape parades, processions, marching bands and fly-bys all in the honour of the new Governor.  Jan blew out a long breath and glanced at Aurran, who was freshly polished and gleaming next to him like a factory-fresh droid yet to be activated.

   “Dap never told me about any of this.”  He grumbled, tracking a squadron of fighters as they buzzed past the cockpit window.  “If I have to make a speech to that lot, someone dies.”

   “Master Jan, I’ve heard your speeches before and they are perfectly adequate for occasions such as this.”  Aurran began to switch over from the powerful engines to repulsors as their landing platform became apparent, and Jan could make out a large greeting party.  He adjusted his collar.  “You will be fine.”

   “I don’t want to be fine, I want to be great.”   He cocked his head as he felt a welcome surge of confidence fill his chest.  “I’m Jan Lomona.  Great is my business.”

   “Yes Master Jan.”  Said Aurran wearily as he stood to leave the cockpit and prepare the Sunrise for landing.  Jan kept on nodding to himself, praising his superior coolness and ability to overcome any situation and swung his freighter into a tricky reverse landing that made the assorted delegates take one step backwards, and shut down the power systems almost as soon as she’d touched the deck, bringing the cooling systems online while the vents were still hot and kicking out a plume of warm and moist air that billowed across the platform.  Satisfied that he’d made a sufficiently classy entrance he stood and walked into the hold, grinning like a man who’d won the biggest hand of Sabacc ever and rubbing his hands together.

   “Ladies, I think it’s time we met our adoring public.”

Frans gave Paige a sidelong glance and nodded, taking Jans hand as Aurran opened the ramps inner hatch.

   “Good luck Master Jan.”

Jan patted his old friend on the shoulder and winked at Aurran as he trundled into the hold from the engines room, damp and gleaming as if he’d just been jet washed.

   “Keep things together here guys.  I’ll be back in the morning to sort out your quarters.”

Aurran straightened, almost in an approximation of shock.

   “Master Jan, that really isn’t necessary.  We are droids.  We don’t require quarters.”

Jan shook his head and fixed Aurran with a serious look.

   “I’m doing all this for my family.  That means you.  You and Troopie get quarters, alright.”

It wasn’t a question it was a statement and Aurran nodded slowly as Frans squeezed her fiancés hand and walked down the ramp by his side, Paige following a few steps behind.  It was a cool evening in Ecaps City, the sun of Tri-Lomon just setting behind the hills that scooped around Ecaps.  Jan smiled as he took a deep breath, remembering the crispness of the air at this time of year and looked back towards the delegation that approached.  He spotted his childhood friend Dap Teks near the front of the assembled group and gave him a grin as he accepted the outstretched hand of the man who approached first.

   “Governor Lomona, it’s a pleasure to welcome you to Governors House, your new home.  I’m Tre Uunaro, Deputy Governor.  It’s my job to familiarise you with the intricacies of A-desandian and Ecaps law, bring you up to speed with what is happening, what motions and agendas we have on the table at the moment.”  The tall man wiped his greying moustache and smiled, his large belly wobbling slightly as he chuckled.  “You must be tired after your journey.”  He turned and gave Dap a raised eyebrow, ushering him to approach.  “Assistant Teks here will take you to your new quarters.”

Jan raised a relieved eyebrow at that and nodded appreciatively.

   “Deputy Uunaro, that would be great.”  He shook Daps hand strongly and clasped an arm around his shoulder.  “Besides, I think me and Dap have a lot to catch up with.”

   “Governor, Governor, before you leave I think it might be wise to at least give the crowd a brief moment of your time.  An appearance at the Governors balcony?”

Jan glanced at Frans and Paige, both of whom were nodding enthusiastically, and at Dap who as ever gave him a blank and unreadable stare.  He knew when he was beat.

   “Sure, why not.  Lead the way.”

 

 

Jans first month in office flew by in a blur of official dinners, meetings with dignitaries, matters of office and occasional bouts of sleep.  He had never been so tired and yet so curiously interested for a long time, and found the thrill of his new position to be strangely liberating.  Frans and Paige had taken to their new roles like ducks to water, filling the position of Governors family expertly and taking advantage of every new opportunity that came their way.  Jan was pleased and told them so, when he had the chance.  During that first hectic month he slept in his own bed only twice, and even then had slept so soundly that when he awoke Frans had already left on a function. 

His thirtieth day in office started much as the others had, with Aurran waking him from his slumber at some ungodly hour with a tray of Shleven rashers and a hot cup of chav, Jans preferred breakfast wake-me-up.  He polished them off with relish as he sat up in bed, reading the business pages of Chancai Express with an interest he simply didn’t have before and turned to appreciate the rising sun outside his veranda.  Ecaps was buzzing with life, even at this hour, and the almost translucent lavender sky looked crisp and ready for the new day.  Jan washed and changed, striding into his sitting room where Tre Uunaro sat waiting for him, a clip full of flims straining to break free.  Jan smiled as he sat down and took the flims from Tre, scanning through them quickly and checking to see what his day held in store.

   “The Ecaps Commerce Guild is your first appointment at nine, followed by the Females Institute brunch at ten thirty.  You’re free for two hours until the meeting with the Halando Minister at two.”

   “What’s Frans doing today?” Jan asked, not looking up from his reading.  Tre checked his schedule, thumbing through flims swiftly.

   “Horticultural show till eleven, then free until four.  Why Governor?  Surely you don’t want to spend quality time with your betrothed?”  Tre gave Jan a mischievous grin as Jan glanced up.

   “Sure, why not.  I’ve hardly seen her since we got here.”  He took another swig from his almost cold chav.  “Just ‘cause I’m the Governor doesn’t mean I only kiss babies.”

   “Indeed.”  Tre stood and nodded at Jan.  “I have business to attend to.  I will meet you at the Gatehouse at two.”

Jan winked at Tre as he departed and crossed his legs as he left the room.  Checking he was definitely alone Jan stood and moved to the door, securing it shut, and wandered across to the balcony that ran along the side of the sitting room.  He stood at the window, watching all manner of vessels trundle by through the enormous buildings of Ecaps City.  Occasional TIE fighters buzzed by, reminding him that even his homeworld was a willing part of the Empire, something he dearly wished he could change.  But if making Ecaps a safer and more secure place was his brief then he would carry that out to the best of his abilities.  A-desando may have thrown its lot in with the Galactic Empire, and been for the most part a loyal ally since the end of the Clone Wars over twenty years ago, but that didn’t mean his Ecaps had to suck up to it too.  At least, that was his belief.  And besides, there were plenty of other ways to defy the Empire.

He answered the insistent bleeping of his comm. and lifted the receiver to his ear.

   “Glann, right on time…yeah, everything’s going great…no, no hiccups…come on, you know how fast I adapt to things…sure, I told you that before I left, any time you need to run through here it’s not an issue…I’ll make sure there’s a docking bay secured for you by noon…don’t mention it, I’ll be in touch.  Oh, and tell Bella Frans said hi and there’s a villa here for you to use if you ever want to take up the offer…and to you.”

Jan grinned as he thumbed off the comm. and walked back to his seat, picking up the flims again and browsing through them as if nothing had just happened.  A couple of minutes later Dap entered the sitting room and seated himself opposite Jan, fixing him with his blank stare.  Jan answered without looking up.

   “What?”

   “Docking Bay 77 is secure and ready for your friends.”

Jan raised an internal eyebrow and let slip an outward smile.

   “I’m sure I don’t know what you’re talking about…but thanks buddy.”

   “Don’t mention it.”  Dap leaned forward in his seat and clasped his hands together.  “Not that it’s important, but your approval rating has skyrocketed since you made Empire Day an official holiday.”

Jan snarled internally at the thought of celebrating that hated anniversary but at the same time patted himself on the back for the clever political signals it gave out.

   “Got to keep the troops happy.”  Jan looked up.  “Besides, it never hurts to distract folks from what’s really going on.”

Dap nodded in agreement.

   “True.  I received word today that your fiscal proposals are almost complete.  I’ve got to admit, many members of the cabinet thought you would just be a figurehead Governor, but these ideas are revolutionary.  If we can keep inflation under control, these projections might just be attainable.”

Jan grinned again as he leaned back in his seat.

   “Dap, Dap, Dap, I’ve been a smuggler for sixteen years.  I can make balance sheets dance.”  He jabbed a finger at his friend.  “And you of all people should have had more faith in me.”

Dap nodded again and was about to reply when the communications panel inlaid into the coffine table began to bleep.  Jan leaned forward and answered.

   “Governor Lomona here.”

   “Sir, we’ve received a message from your family estate.  It’s your mother.”

Jan gave Dap a concerned look as Dap stood to his feet.

   “Come on Jan, the Governors speeder is this way.  You’ll be there in minutes.”

Jan stood as if shrouded in a fog.  His mother, who he had never been close to, had fallen ill of late and upon their last meeting had persuaded her only surviving son to assume the mantle of Governor of Ecaps City in place of his recently deceased father.  Unwillingly at first Jan had agreed, but this past month had left him wondering about his mothers actions.  Did she know that he would take to this position so eagerly?  Somehow, could she foresee that he would become such an efficient and tidy leader?  He looked at Dap with glazed eyes and breathed deeply though his nose.

   “Take me to my mother.”

 

 

The speeder raced high across the hills of the Ponon Pass and through the valley toward Ponon City, his destination.  The sun was casting its light onto the purple skies and rich green fields of A-desando as the speeder rapidly decelerated and swung its nose around to land softly in the wide courtyard of the Lomona estate.  Jan leapt out of the speeder and raced towards the house, the door already opened by the family doctor who stood waiting at the door with a sad look across his face. 

   “Governor Lomona, I am so sorry.”

Jan ignored him and skidded into the hall, turning around the staircase and left into the main lounge.  It looked much as it had the last time he’d been here, candle lit and dark, his mother lying in a cradle of soft pillows.  He struggled to catch his breath.  The last time he had seen Sieera she had seemed frail and small, like a shrunken version of the powerful woman he remembered from his youth, but now she was wizened and aged like a dried fruit left out in the sun for too long, and even her sunken eyes seemed bereft of life.  He closed the door and approached the bed gingerly, careful not to disturb her but secretly hoping she would stir from her slumber just so she would know he was there.

   “Mom?”  He took another step closer to the bed.  “Mom, it’s me, Jan.  I came as soon as I heard.”  He took a chair from by the wall and moved it to the edge of the bed.  “They tell me you’re in a bad way, but I don’t believe them.  I still think you’ve got a heart like a Bantha.”

   “Stupid boy,” she whispered, barely audible above the rasping croak of her breathing.  Jan moved closer and blanched at the acrid smell that emanated from her.  Her syndrome was reaching the final stages of its pillage through her body and both mother and son knew it.  Whatever Sieera wanted to say she had to say now.

   “That’s me Mom.  Your stupid boy.”  He took her twig-like hand.  “But everybody else calls me Governor.”

Sieera’s eyes opened at that and she surveyed her sons face with a placid smile.

   “I’m proud of you son.  You finally did something worthwhile with your life.”  She coughed up a handful of something gross and paused to compose herself.  “About time.”

   “I’m A-desandian.  There’s plenty of time in this life to do something worthwhile.”  He squeezed her hand softly, just enough so she knew he meant what he was about to say.  “I thought about what you said before.  About making Frans an honest woman.”  He drew a deep breath.  “Once my governorship’s over I’m going to marry her on a raft on the lake.  All my friends will be there, my family.  You’ll be there too.”

   “What you gonna do?  Bring my urn?”

Jan shook his head, his usual humour deserting him.

   “You’ll be there in spirit.  I know because the last few weeks have made me see that you did give me something, despite all the arguments we’ve had over the years.  I’m made of tougher stuff than I thought and that’s because of you.”  He suddenly found his eyes filling with tears.  “Thanks Mom.”

   “Don’t mention it.”  She smiled before collapsing into another coughing fit.  Once composed she gripped his hand as tightly as her frail fingers allowed.  “Now go son.  I don’t want you to remember me like this.  Leave and go back to your new life.  The one I always wanted for you.”

Jan nodded sadly and stood to his feet, not taking his eyes off his mother.

   “I will Mom.  And thanks.”

   “For what?”

Jan smiled and shrugged, suddenly at a loss for words.

   “You’re my Mom, there doesn’t have to be a reason.”  He released her hand and stepped away from the bed.  “Sleep tight.”

Jan turned and walked out of the room before his mother could reply and ran back to the speeder, stepping in and gunning the engine as Dap watched in mournful silence.  He flew away from his family estate at low altitude, taking one final glance at his family home and never looked back.

 

 

Throwing it all Away

1986/2004/2005 story by Mark Newbold

Three years after Episode IV – A New Hope

 

 

Histories – This 1986 NHP Audio tape told the story of Jan Lomona turning his back on the underworld and returning to his home planet of A-desando to take up the Governorship of Ecaps City.  Following on from Mothers Pride it also serves to show the mending of fences between Jan and his mother before her death, and also how Jan takes eagerly to his new position as Governor of Ecaps.

 

Cast of Characters

 

Jan Lomona

Frans Latka

Paige Retgarr Lomona

Glann Cipple

Goah Galletti Clone

Bella Cipple

Dap Teks

Sieera Cetting Lomona